Update | I Have Seen. I Have Done. I Have Thought

Dear fellow Babblers,

To be back in the blogosphere. This is almost too much. I have forgotten how to come back to my keyboard so the fact that I’m here now writing even this much out is already too much. The thought of writing a post! But what fear that creates in me! Who will read? Did anyone even notice I was gone ? What’s changed amongst book reviewers lately ? What’s everyone been reading ? Are we still hung up on Adam Silvera or is there already someone new ? And writing to y’all ? What can, should, do I even do I give a life update that no one really even cares about? I mean, come on, I’m not Selena Gomez here. Well hey, I’m supposedly a book reviewer, right ? So why not write a book review ? Yeah, no. And why ? I really just cannot. There are too many thoughts, feelings, meaningless intentions pulsating in that dark and shallow corner in the back of my mind. I just cannot focus on critiquing any sort of thematics, language, or structure of the world spinning in another writer’s mind. So if this post is not a banal life update or a sophisticated book review, what is all this nonsense doing floating on your screen trying to get across ? Not even I, the thoughtless scribbler behind all of this can give a clear, to-the-professor’s-point response. All I know is I’ve missed writing. I’ve missed interacting with other bloggers. I’ve missed pouring my heart into my keyboard. Being away has brought me back. Fear has kept me away, but nostalgia has lead me back. What I have seen, done, thought in the past three months not writing, whether it be on this platform or another, is what has lead me to discover that writing is one of those hobbies, obsessions, outlets – call it what you will – that give me my spirit, soul – life…

…And so here, for this post is what I have seen, done, thought in the past three months of not writing:  Continue reading “Update | I Have Seen. I Have Done. I Have Thought”

30 In 7 Years

Dear fellow Babblers,

I turned 23 just a couple of weeks ago, on February 28. I think it’s safe to say that I’m no longer a teenager but I don’t think I’m ready to call myself an adult quite yet. It’s hard to believe that my “kid” life is already behind me, as there’s so much I had in mind to do before even turning 20. Looking back, I think I was trying to grow up too fast. I was forgetting about the little things in life, the excitement that simple days could have become if I had only lived a little bit more in the moment, and had been willing to love myself instead of marking myself with so much spite.

I don’t normally celebrate holidays, including my birthdays, but something about turning 23 ticked in my mind. I’ve been turning over my life in my mind the last few weeks which have lead me to write this post.

I’ve grown a lot emotionally, mentally and spiritually in the last year alone, overcoming several milestones between academics, professional and personal life. This year. No, the next seven years. I’m giving myself to accomplish all these things. This list gives me life to look forward to – something to work towards, to be willing to change for, to be open to take risks over. Welcome to my next 7 year long adventure.  Continue reading “30 In 7 Years”

All The Little Loves of My Life

Dear fellow Babblers,

I’ve been having a pretty banal past few weeks. Just a usual cycle of comings and goings. I’m taking a month long break from traveling and am going through wanderlust withdrawl. It’s Monday but the day of the week doesn’t really mean much to me as I’ve fallen into my own sort of circadian rhthym that doesn’t seem to fall in with the rest of the world. I’m in between choosing from four different masters programs, am planning out my upcoming trips (a return to Morocco coming soon!), all the while making ends mean with my part time teaching job.

With all the changes happening in my life, this morning I got around to thinking about love. And why did this idea wake me up? Because although I’m often sad or desperately seeking solitude, there is so much in life, in my life that I can say that I love, and so I thought I would share my concept of love to give sleepy Monday some hope.
Love is something delicate and fragile. It can happen unexpectedly when that special someone walks into your favorite Starbucks. It can be destroyed unknowingly leaving your breathless and unwilling to trust again. Children, spouses, partners, single swingers all carry a spark inside of them where love grows and glimmers with time. That special someone or something that makes our life our treasure, a treasure that we share by being.  Continue reading “All The Little Loves of My Life”

Life Update: This & This & That & Wanderings Here & There

Dear fellow Babblers,

It’s been a longgggggg past couple of weeks, let me start off with that kids. I have been from place to place, couch to couch, appointment to appointment, idea to idea. Not to mention I have been without my laptop during this trek, hence my absence from the blogging community. but I’m back and the only reason I am starting my post like this is because I want to let all my fellow babblers out there that I’m back, fully energized and ready to get back in my blogging game! But then I always say that until reality decides to come back around and kick me out again. But until then I thought I just may share my life these past few weeks, what I’ve been reading (this is a book blog after all), as well as where I’ve wandered.  Continue reading “Life Update: This & This & That & Wanderings Here & There”

Delphine Wanders | B*A*M Delphine Wanders More

Dear fellow Babblers,

Goodness freaking frocking ficking f**king gracious! I don’t even know how I manage to let so long go by without getting onto wordpress! I especially miss reading all my dear lovelies reviews and bookish posts (special mention goes to: Alex at coffeeloving bookoholic, Noriko at Diary of a Bookfiend, Angela at Books of a Shy Girl, Dani at Perspective of a Writer, Michenko at ReadRantRock&Roll, Ally at Ally Writes Things and Inge at The Belgian Reviewer) – please check out these kiddos’ pages – they’re MY inspiration as a true and devoted and artistic book blogger. I mainly haven’t been on much because I’m a bit embarrassed to say that I have not been reading as much as I used to.

Once upon a time in a run down apartment in the heart of Los Angeles Señorita Delphina made it through 1000 pages in less than a week with the help of a cuddly little kitten by the name of Haruki. And then France came to steal her heart and her time…  Continue reading “Delphine Wanders | B*A*M Delphine Wanders More”

Where Delphine Be At + Book Aesthetics Tag

Dear fellow Babblers,

I’ve been an awfully terrible blogger these past few months. After the high and excitement went away regarding my new home in France I quickly fell into a long, dreary and dark wave of depression that resulted in nostalgia and ended with complete and utter helplessness. So finding the motivation to blog and even read, which has always picked up my spirits before, has been hard, if not impossible – hence my lack of activity here on wordpress lately. I find it fascinating how we can go from joy to grief in such a short and abrupt amount of time and we often have no idea what triggers this. I mean, I love it here in the Burgundy region. I really do. But it has not wiped away the problems I had back in Los Angeles – it only masked them for a while. And now ? They are all coming back to the surface. I ran away from my problems. I packed my bags and came to France in hopes that I could forget everything that happened a few years ago. Life doesn’t work that way though and now I’m more lost than ever in a place far from everything I’ve ever known. I’m sad. But I’m a hopeful kind of sad. The sort of sad that just takes time. Soon everything will get better, I still have faith…  Continue reading “Where Delphine Be At + Book Aesthetics Tag”

Life Update Part 3: Delphine et la France

Dear fellow Babblers,

One last post to conclude my Life Update series on relocating to France.
If any of you have read the two earlier posts, you’ll well be aware that I am no longer living in the states and I am writing these posts as a way of somehow connecting with the world as well as reflecting on my initial impressions and thoughts of my new home here in Joigny, on the outskirts of Paris. These posts are written as I wait to be finally connected to the wifi. I haven’t had internet connection here for the past three weeks, and being a blogger and a gal trying to fill out grad school applications just let me tell ya that it’s pretty killer. However, this post is the first written in which I have Wifi so you can only imagine my relief and utter gratitude for the bimbo technician that finally came along to connect the bastard.

Anyway. This post is going to be devoted to my new work as an assistant English teacher at the local high school, where I am also currently living, and some new discoveries I have been making of myself as I begin to perceive the world around me under a different sunlight and moonlight. Continue reading “Life Update Part 3: Delphine et la France”

Life Update Part 2: Delphine et la France

Dear fellow Babblers,

Welcome back to my “Life Update” series. These posts are basically just a detour back into my last few weeks and how my life has drastically changed, having moved from sunny California to nippy Joigny.

The first post of this series was really just a deep and personal reflection of my first impressions of France and in what ways my life, in terms of my overall mentality, has changed and what it has done to my perceptions of life and the world around me. In this second post I will get into some of the places and many adventures that I have had since arriving. Of course I will not be able to include everything, but I thought it would be rather fun to bring y’all into my life outside of my blog and book-reviewing. Also… Another reason for these posts? I haven’t picked up to read a single book since I got here… YIKES. That probably wouldn’t be such a big deal if my blog wasn’t umm… well… a BOOK BLOG!!!  Continue reading “Life Update Part 2: Delphine et la France”